Dream-liked life

Recently I started to realize something.
I tend to forget things that I have done before.
It was like I often thought that I never experience something/ never taste the food/ never visit that place and so on whereas I actually did all those stuffs.

Then, I tell people I don't know about these and that, I never been to here and there, I never said those words to someone......
Or I would say did I went those places with you? or they are just appearing in my dream in some days?
And they will answered :"No, you are not dreaming!!! Is real man! Omg! What's wrong with your brain?! How could you forget that?!"

Ah......fml!
I lead dream-liked life?!
Probably is good for some reasons at least I will not stuck myself into the past unhappy moments.
But sometimes I feel so shitty!

And another thing I learnt talking straight forward equals to hurting someone!!!
I just found out that this attitude of mine actually accidentally hurt a friend.
I already forgot it but he still remembered after years and told my friend about that.
Sorry, I didn't mean to do that and of course I'm glad that he don't mind that anymore.

So, friends sometimes I may hurt you but please don't bear in mind.
I really didn't mean to do so and I never remember those bad words either ( if you consider my straight forward wordings are mean).
Please don't keep in mind or send your words to me from others.
Just lemme know...... and I can do the explanation.

Anyway, just

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