Do you love your job?

I wonder how many of you out there who loves your job so much?
So far I haven't meet anyone who is so passionate about his own job.
Either he gets a really high salary, but he is with heavy duty or he is being relax but gets low income or he gets a job but worrying of getting fired.
Well, I know hard works get pay off.
Guess nothing is perfect, it is so true!

Everyone is working for living, we all know without a stable income you can hardly have a comfortable life.
You want to eat good food, you want to buy nice stuffs, you want to travel to places or even if you don't need all these, you still need a shelter and there you need to pay bills.

Some change from this job to another to get better offer, better opportunity but they don't enjoy working.
I wonder those who always say hey be happy everyday, do you really feel happy when you need to go into the workplace that you don't really hate but you don't like either?

I envy those who can turns his passion into a job. Seriously, it's being real cool.
But how many of you get to do that?
I don't mind if I need to work for a long hours if I'm doing something I'm happy with.

What if I'm not a teacher, what would I be?
Sometimes, I think about this. (actually is every years)
Would everything now become so different? Yea, from every single aspects.
But, is a waste of time thinking about it as times don't turn back.

People would tell you to go ahead, chase your dream, quit if you don't like it. Do whatever you like, that's your own life.
I have been thinking about it, I'm not bold enough, I'm living in comfort zone, I can't not taking care about parents' concern. Sometimes, I hope I can be more rebel and have more courage to be more daring but still parents is the barrier that I can't cross over.

Traditional Asian parents are sick, sometimes especially their perspective in independency and financial.
If you are being stubborn, they feel sad and worry, but if you obey them, you get stuck there by yourself and you still need to pretend that it's ok mom and dad.
When you tell them your opinion, they deny all by thinking you're immature and literally you're stupid because they actually wanna live in comfort zone, too.
They can't bear to see their kids fail. That's the point! Failure is disaster for them.
So in the end you think you love your parents by not wanting them to worry about you, you keep quiet and this is the most stupid ever decision.

When can I be set free? As age grows by, you have even less courage to pursue your initial dream and in the end you work on something you not enjoyable until your pension.

Let's see if you have fate in your life. This is a bullshit, I remember an Eurasian told me so.
I got a bit offended when he said so but later on I envy this man who is bold enough to go after his own life. Isn't it true? Why do you need fate? You chase after opportunity, not sitting there and hoping someone comes to help you.

So, what if you have sick traditional minded parents, too? You really need to find something else to make sure you're not tight down by them 100%, at least the other 50% is control by you, that's why you see some people behave differently when they are out of home.

Sigh, sigh, sigh! Not that wanted to spread negative vibes, just when you can't tell them, you gotta write out to vent your emotion so that you'll feel better.


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New beginning for 2017

Hi year 2017, you have no choice to not entering another new year, to get old, to undergo new challenges, to get the same old shits repeat and so on.

Last year wasn't a worst year but not a good year either as I finally learn how to cry.
Why? I shall just keep it myself.

Found that as age growing, friends start to become less dependent and feel more comfortable to stay alone.
Was used to be the one who always ask friends to hang out, but recently realized that am I actually bothering them?
I need to learn to be doing things alone, too.
I need to find something to do instead of always bugging friends to accompany me, I guess.
But, I still prefer companion.
Two is always better than one.
Kinda understand why people who lives alone usually having a pet dog or cat now.

I might be surrounded with a little bit of negative vibes, but I'm trying to come out from it.
Forcing myself to be positive, to believe in hopes, to look better.
Not gonna drown into the negativity.
I'm going to make sure I always look fabulous and I wanna make sure friend who lose passion in life wakes up, too.

Yea, so I started this year with a new hair colour.

          

Purple hair! I've tried red colour during last year.
I definitely know both colours don't look presentable on me especially in my field and my working environment. (fyi, not even one colleague is dying her own hair, I'm always stepping the border line.)
At least I'm not rebellious till to dye rainbow colours.
I don't care, we only live once.
I just wanna try doing whatever I can as there are already a lot of restrictions in ma life.

Social media sometimes bring 'bad' influences.
Why?
Because you gotta see how people enjoy life!
For certain extend, I would to say money can buy happiness.
One of the goal in year 2017 is do a lot of saving, so that one day you gonna travel to some places to create memories with your loved ones.

Bye shits!
Good vibes please!


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Rawa Island 14 - 16。03。16_02

So how about consider getting a house beside a beach like this after your pension?
Waking up by the sea waves' sound, cooking your breakfast with the beautiful sea in front of you, read something by sea breeze, jump into the water anytime you want, a leisure walk with your hubby holding hands. Then, the day ends with watching the stars over the infinity sky. That pretty much sums up life that I wanna have when I'm 65.

As I mentioned on the previous post, I went Rawa during the hottest season.
But, I don't care about the hot sun.
When u go to an island, you must have tanner skin right?
By the way, bikini line is sexy!

Can you see the sunlight?
I must thanks my friend who took this lovely shot!

During the next morning, we found a lot of transparent jelly kind of sea creatures with mustard colour 'eye' on the shore.
If anyone comes across my blog and you know what kind of exact creatures are these, please let me know.
Some said they are some kind of jellyfish.

That's all for my trip in Rawa.
Absorbed so much vitamin sea and salty water but it's awesome.
As usual, every places that I went there are great sides and the downsides but I always believe that you widen horizon not just by seeing a place through internet or book but you need to step on the land, toes in the sand and feel it by yourself. There's nothing about worthy or not with the prices you paid.

Bye, peeps. Looking forward for another adventure, soon.


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Rawa Island 14 - 16。03。16_01

March was a month that I felt really upset. Hence, I decided to go for a short getaway like no matter what I just wanna escape from it. Few years ago, we did planned to visit Rawa Island but then it changed to Sepang Gold Coast. Now, we finally stepped our feet on this pristine island.

Rawa island is an private island own by the Sultan of Johor. There has only two resorts operated. One is Rawa Island's resort, which is more suitable for honeymoon couples as they have more choices on rooms that you can really lying down on the bed cuddling with your love one facing the sea (That's what I thought of how good if I was with my bf). Another one is Alang's Rawa which only provided few types of houses that suitable for groups of families or friends.

My friends and I chose Alang's Rawa as it costs cheaper prices. The only reservation that they take is through email and behind the email, the person who handles it is a lady from Royal family. Before I went to this island, I saw kinda much bad comments about the reservations in Alang's. Well, of course, to read hundreds of inquires per day is not an easy job. That's the reason that sometimes when you're in not in luck, your email can't even be seen. My friend did the reservation three years ago and two weeks earlier from the trip, both weren't got a reply. Then, a week later I thought of giving it a try to email again and like finally, we booked a room.

Basically, there are few types of houses at Alang's. Don't worry that the description saying about the room distance from their open air restaurant. Believe me, everything is near like within 1km and you can definitely see the sea view from each houses. But of course is not seeing it while you are lying on your bed, do walk a few steps to the balcony please.

This was the view from the balcony of my room.
Yes, the sea water is that blue! that blue!
I really like to see those different blue colour tones on the water.
You just got to feel such amazed by the nature of God. 

Greeted by this big dream catcher hanging on the wall inside the room.
That particular period I was obsessed with dream catcher. 

We were staying in a room without aircond during the hottest El-Nino season.
Well, it was kinda stuffy during day time but we prefer to stay outdoor so it's definitely ok.
During night time, the weather turned cooler.
So, a room without aircond is not a problem for us.
Just one downside to remind was the water was really salty (suspected the pipe water was coming right from the sea), don't expect to have a clean body after your wash.
And girls, your hair just gonna be dry after your few days stayed.
We literally felt that we were back to the heaven when we reached back home to have a good nice bath.
Clean water is precious in the island.

We began our trip by having late lunch at their open air restaurant.
They will reserved table according to your travelling groups.
Every meals they served in buffet style, tasted really delicious especially their beef.
Personally I think the food was kinda salty.
I was doubting did the chef used sea water to cook? LOL.

What can you do on this small island?
Honestly, not much.

Swim and swim. 
When you swim a little bit far from the shore you'll start to see death corals, I don't think that can be consider as a good swimming session.

Snorkeling. 
No fishes or beautiful corals, but after my trip backed from there I saw people posted video that they saw cute nemos. It was at the other side nearby the slides but staffs from Alang's warned us that there are a lot of sea urchin that's why we didn't went snorkeled at there.

Relaxing by the beachside/ jetty.
Alang's provided a lot of books at a corner so grab one and enjoy reading.
You can find some bean bags and couches over the jetty there.
In front of Alang's restaurant, there are hammocks and beach chairs as well.
Lay on the beachside to watch stars gazing, you'll just feeling wow and wow like how could you find such shinning stars at sky in the city.

Slide into the sea if you dare enough. 
So much wanted to try but I was so worry about the moment I drop into the sea because I can't swim at all.

Canoeing. 
Tired but fun.

Hiking. 
Not a high mountain so don't worry about it, you can see beautiful sunset from there. Along the way, you'll see some peacocks walking elegantly and some even on top of the roof! We were really wondering that can peacocks fly?

Peacock farm. 
That was the first time I saw so many peacocks with their feathers opened to catch female peacocks' attention. It's funny to see how arrogant the female peacocks just walked away from the aggressiveness of the male peacocks by vibrating their feathers. Girls, I got you. Lol.

 

Other than that, the beauty scenery worth every single memories in your camera or phone. So, take plenty of pictures/ videos.

Every water activities equipment are free of charge. They might be taking RM50 as a deposit that can be refund but sometimes they just being so carefree that saying, ok you just take whatever you want and remember to return to its original place. This resort just like a home to everyone, do whatever you like and enjoy it to the max.

but I CAN'T TELL......

Another half year since my last post.
It crossed from year 2015 to 2016.

A lot of things have changed......
It seems like a good one if you look from outside.

The work place has changed......and now I'm living with my parents again.
Ironically I used to wished that a lot because I don't like staying with relatives but now I actually feel easier when I stayed there without my parents.
I saw an article before about "Things you should do before 35".
Stay out of family.
I kinda wish that...... I know a lot of people out there wish to spend more time with family but I'm the opposite weirdo.
I do hope to live a bit far away from family...... so that I don't have to tell them wherever I go.
Sometimes I feel like I'm just a 7 years old kid for them...... I need more freedom
but I CAN'T TELL......

I have started to pursue degree course since last year.
I'm actually kinda happy to study at KL for like twice every few months.
I like city life.
Ironically I used to think is a happy thing to go KL but my dad wanna follow me everytime I go there.
I have no freedom at all with his guarding there. It's hard for me to go out late to hang out with friends.
Is always torturing to stay in relatives' house.
I don't like it
but I CAN'T TELL......

The relationship status has changed......
But I got a lot of doubting and I'm not as happy as previously.
Ironically I used to be so carefree, so optimistic, so happy......
I have some problems but I don't know who to share with......
Not my mom, is a secret.
Not my friends, they don't really care about that.
Not my BFFs, they have more problems than me.
For them it seems like my problem is actually not a problem at all.
I start to feel like I'm not myself anymore.
I don't really like to share my thought to family and friends.
They say a good relationship make you to be a better person.
Am I choosing the wrong person?
Am I being too inconsiderate?
I'm unhappy
but I CAN'T TELL......



I know is being to too public to confided but blogging is the only way that I can do right now.