Optimism

Last day of Lunar New Year and fire crackers everywhere since morning.

Okay, wake up! Gonna be good and good will comes.
Been telling myself, I gonna learn and be strong!

I gonna be the one who shines like few years ago.
Been setting plank and squat challenges for myself.
It feels good when you see your target is getting nearer.

Always believe that when you look good, eventually things around you will be getting better and better.
And I'm gonna meet someone better!

Yep, year 2017 gonna be one of the great year!!


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Do you love your job?

I wonder how many of you out there who loves your job so much?
So far I haven't meet anyone who is so passionate about his own job.
Either he gets a really high salary, but he is with heavy duty or he is being relax but gets low income or he gets a job but worrying of getting fired.
Well, I know hard works get pay off.
Guess nothing is perfect, it is so true!

Everyone is working for living, we all know without a stable income you can hardly have a comfortable life.
You want to eat good food, you want to buy nice stuffs, you want to travel to places or even if you don't need all these, you still need a shelter and there you need to pay bills.

Some change from this job to another to get better offer, better opportunity but they don't enjoy working.
I wonder those who always say hey be happy everyday, do you really feel happy when you need to go into the workplace that you don't really hate but you don't like either?

I envy those who can turns his passion into a job. Seriously, it's being real cool.
But how many of you get to do that?
I don't mind if I need to work for a long hours if I'm doing something I'm happy with.

What if I'm not a teacher, what would I be?
Sometimes, I think about this. (actually is every years)
Would everything now become so different? Yea, from every single aspects.
But, is a waste of time thinking about it as times don't turn back.

People would tell you to go ahead, chase your dream, quit if you don't like it. Do whatever you like, that's your own life.
I have been thinking about it, I'm not bold enough, I'm living in comfort zone, I can't not taking care about parents' concern. Sometimes, I hope I can be more rebel and have more courage to be more daring but still parents is the barrier that I can't cross over.

Traditional Asian parents are sick, sometimes especially their perspective in independency and financial.
If you are being stubborn, they feel sad and worry, but if you obey them, you get stuck there by yourself and you still need to pretend that it's ok mom and dad.
When you tell them your opinion, they deny all by thinking you're immature and literally you're stupid because they actually wanna live in comfort zone, too.
They can't bear to see their kids fail. That's the point! Failure is disaster for them.
So in the end you think you love your parents by not wanting them to worry about you, you keep quiet and this is the most stupid ever decision.

When can I be set free? As age grows by, you have even less courage to pursue your initial dream and in the end you work on something you not enjoyable until your pension.

Let's see if you have fate in your life. This is a bullshit, I remember an Eurasian told me so.
I got a bit offended when he said so but later on I envy this man who is bold enough to go after his own life. Isn't it true? Why do you need fate? You chase after opportunity, not sitting there and hoping someone comes to help you.

So, what if you have sick traditional minded parents, too? You really need to find something else to make sure you're not tight down by them 100%, at least the other 50% is control by you, that's why you see some people behave differently when they are out of home.

Sigh, sigh, sigh! Not that wanted to spread negative vibes, just when you can't tell them, you gotta write out to vent your emotion so that you'll feel better.


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New beginning for 2017

Hi year 2017, you have no choice to not entering another new year, to get old, to undergo new challenges, to get the same old shits repeat and so on.

Last year wasn't a worst year but not a good year either as I finally learn how to cry.
Why? I shall just keep it myself.

Found that as age growing, friends start to become less dependent and feel more comfortable to stay alone.
Was used to be the one who always ask friends to hang out, but recently realized that am I actually bothering them?
I need to learn to be doing things alone, too.
I need to find something to do instead of always bugging friends to accompany me, I guess.
But, I still prefer companion.
Two is always better than one.
Kinda understand why people who lives alone usually having a pet dog or cat now.

I might be surrounded with a little bit of negative vibes, but I'm trying to come out from it.
Forcing myself to be positive, to believe in hopes, to look better.
Not gonna drown into the negativity.
I'm going to make sure I always look fabulous and I wanna make sure friend who lose passion in life wakes up, too.

Yea, so I started this year with a new hair colour.

          

Purple hair! I've tried red colour during last year.
I definitely know both colours don't look presentable on me especially in my field and my working environment. (fyi, not even one colleague is dying her own hair, I'm always stepping the border line.)
At least I'm not rebellious till to dye rainbow colours.
I don't care, we only live once.
I just wanna try doing whatever I can as there are already a lot of restrictions in ma life.

Social media sometimes bring 'bad' influences.
Why?
Because you gotta see how people enjoy life!
For certain extend, I would to say money can buy happiness.
One of the goal in year 2017 is do a lot of saving, so that one day you gonna travel to some places to create memories with your loved ones.

Bye shits!
Good vibes please!


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but I CAN'T TELL......

Another half year since my last post.
It crossed from year 2015 to 2016.

A lot of things have changed......
It seems like a good one if you look from outside.

The work place has changed......and now I'm living with my parents again.
Ironically I used to wished that a lot because I don't like staying with relatives but now I actually feel easier when I stayed there without my parents.
I saw an article before about "Things you should do before 35".
Stay out of family.
I kinda wish that...... I know a lot of people out there wish to spend more time with family but I'm the opposite weirdo.
I do hope to live a bit far away from family...... so that I don't have to tell them wherever I go.
Sometimes I feel like I'm just a 7 years old kid for them...... I need more freedom
but I CAN'T TELL......

I have started to pursue degree course since last year.
I'm actually kinda happy to study at KL for like twice every few months.
I like city life.
Ironically I used to think is a happy thing to go KL but my dad wanna follow me everytime I go there.
I have no freedom at all with his guarding there. It's hard for me to go out late to hang out with friends.
Is always torturing to stay in relatives' house.
I don't like it
but I CAN'T TELL......

The relationship status has changed......
But I got a lot of doubting and I'm not as happy as previously.
Ironically I used to be so carefree, so optimistic, so happy......
I have some problems but I don't know who to share with......
Not my mom, is a secret.
Not my friends, they don't really care about that.
Not my BFFs, they have more problems than me.
For them it seems like my problem is actually not a problem at all.
I start to feel like I'm not myself anymore.
I don't really like to share my thought to family and friends.
They say a good relationship make you to be a better person.
Am I choosing the wrong person?
Am I being too inconsiderate?
I'm unhappy
but I CAN'T TELL......



I know is being to too public to confided but blogging is the only way that I can do right now.

Randomly on July

Hi, dear blog, sorry you have been abandoned by your owner.
Just checked out and my last post was on February.

So, here comes July.
Aha, so fast that it kinda seems like year 2015 is going to end soon.
So what had you done for the past six months? Any good achievements?

I was like almost same, rotten at the same kampung.
And I kind of demotivate on blogging, planning trip, reading even just few lines or magazines don't really attract me anymore, sometimes even talking also I feel lazy.
Ah, what's wrong with me......

Somehow, life gone a little bit better maybe with more exercises but it seems like I started to be lazy again.
A better bonding with few friends, glad that I still have the power that make people willing to share problems with me even though we don't always see each other.
I'm always ok if anyone feel depress or sad or feel like talking to someone, I may not be helping but I can lend my ears.
Yet, from there I learnt something.
A lot of people you may seems they are living a happy life but seriously they faced serious break down too, just every time tolerance n trust are important.
Whatever...... just feel blessed, we are blessed enough, don't be too greedy man!

Yea, blessed July. I certainly hope this will be one of the best month for this year.
Of course, I have been counting on something in my mind..... hahahaha... yea... it will be a good and perfect month with surprises.



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First January of Too Old Wan Fine

So quick right? Yea tick tock tick tock it's 2015!
Another year again...
Why do I say Too Old Wan Fine?
Yes, I'm getting older c'mon it's 27 soon and Wan is my surname that means I'm fine with it... hahaha... just gonna hynotized myself I'm still 25.

I always wish to have a count down celebration but I didn't got to have any celebration yesterday night. Sobs.
Damn, late message! I supposed to count down in KL as this year is the only year that I don't have to work on 1st of January ever since I started to work.
For some bus ticket selling booth - late message - mind not spontaneous enough - delayed stuff reasons Damn again!
But well... don't get this small shit to ruin a new year.
At least I'll have a homie dinner with friends later. Yay!

I still remember 2011/12 were the darkest years then i found that the next year 2013 everything gone better and I hoped it continued to another year which was 2014.
So yea 2014 was pretty much the same as 2013.
Guess sometimes I should wished more...LOL.

Ok, no, I have to be gratitute enough that I'm actually so blessed compare to a lot of people. As last year we heard few airplanes crashed news imagine how heart broken if you were family of one of them.

So a little sums up here:

Career:
14' - Was kinda same or maybe I should say yea was bit better.
15' - I hope the transfering back to Kuantan is successful then I can start tuitions and earn more for travelling and good food!

Family:
14' - Still the same as well, just brother went study to another state so less fighting now.
15' - Definitely hope my parents still healthy and give me more freedom!

Friendships:
14' - Get to know some new friends. Well... is always good to have more and more friends.
15' - Instead of hi-bye friends I wanted to have more true friends with sincere heart or maybe someone that can inspire me. Is so good to know when you have been trusted by someone.

Relationship:
14' - Oh yeah, few friends relationship's status changed, of course to a better stage, but why am I still the same? sigh...
15' - Oh Lord, please have the right one appears soon. Seriously just the right one enough.

Charity:
14' - So like finally I went to do some volunteering at an orphanage nearby. Cute kids and serious caring brotherhood and sisterhood I had discovered there and I learnt too. But, something that made me guilty was seems that I'm not doing well enough to teach them and I couldn't made it there every weekends due to my laziness.
15' - Dilemma. Should I continue?

Travel:
14' - Have been travelling to few places Bangkok - Hua Hin - Langkawi - Ipoh - Pangkor Island - Cameron and KL/Penang that I used to go every years.
15' - So, more places and corners to discover soon in year 2015!! Still hope to have chance to visit Australia or maybe Macao for bungee!!

Anyway, may 2015 be a greater year ahead!

Oh yeah!

Be positive, remain my as always high self confidence lol
(I know if lil S see this sure gonna think I'm so lc...lol..whatever),
for sure I gonna have a better year that showering with loves and cares!!

May everyone around me be good as well!












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Naive

Am I being too naive?
Am I really that stupid?

It seems like everyone is telling me not to trust people easily.
Nobody really supported me now.
But I just think if you never give out the first step, you'll never know if the person is really that not trustable or that bad.
Who knows right... might be a good one but also who knows might be someone who con on you... sigh
I mean is there really no any good person out there to be trusted?
Aren't there still some angels among the devils? Ok, maybe 1/1000.
Then, they would say you would never have chance to meet the "1".
Is it everyone living with bad intention?
People just tell you not to trust anyone, the world out there is too dangerous.
You don't wanna try cuz you're not strong enough for it.

I'm really in dilemma, should I try or I just stop there...should I really give up then?
There is too much to be worry about... yes too much cuz I'm a girl... wtf!
What if I'm a guy, then everything is totally different... nothing to be worry then.

I just feel like I'm telling too much at first.
I shouldn't be so honest towards a stranger.
That's what we called naive I guess.
I did some mistakes at the first place.

I miss City

Aww, I MISS CITY AIR.
Generally I just wanna travel out of here.
Everyone wanna escape from the concrete jungle but I'm opposite.
I don't need so much green around me now. Skyscappers please.
Hell, is damn so boring man... is so...!!
I can't take it anymore... wtf is been six years.
Damn I was just 19+ by that time, I should have experience something bigger and lead more happening life.
I wanna meet more lively, beautiful, fashionable, crazy, bubbly, talkative, positive, young and any great people.

I gonna spend like crazy again.
Dilemma: Out to the big city more often and spend on nice food or just rotten at the small town but save lots for assets.
Don't care la... Just spend!

9 more days to go!
Woots!
And yeah I finally got my hair red violet dip-dyed!





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#PrayForMH17

Deepest condolence to families of everyone who on board of MH17.

Sad to say twice in a year and happened in the same airline, is really a tragic news for Malaysians. Heartfelt by seeing this happened.

God bless everyone, forgive our sins.


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Anger

I know I shouldn't tell the whole world about the negative things of my family member.

But I just really wish to kill him sometimes!

I can't stand this bastard!

Why on earth I got brother with this kind of attitude!

Why other people's brother can be so good but not you??

I'm not hoping you to be good towards me but can you please mind your own manners toward the parents!

You're no longer small kid why your attitude is even worse than a primary student!

Can't you be considerate a bit in front of your family??????

Why can't you be a little bit thoughtful?
Who feed you till this tall!! Who try their best to give you whatever you want!!
You think you got money to spend, you think you got food to eat, you think you got car to drive without them???
You think those money drop from sky?
You live in this house like a King! You think you no need contribute?
Helped in one house chore means you whole year no need do already is it!!!!
Washing a spoon could kill you is it!!!!
This is one of the most ridiculous point I have ever heard.

You watch so much drama those characters never teach you to respect?
Why can't you be nice even just for a week?

You treat people outside so gentle but you act like a bullshit in front of us!

You are such a SHIT!

Girls outside you all just fool by this man! No. Not even a man is a coward!

You never think twice why everyone in the house is hoping you to leave?!
I tolerance with you 7 more months.

If one day I can't control my temper you will die with your facebook account!
I keep quiet not scolding you loudly because I don't want chaos and parents feel sadder.
I know something will damage if we fight.
I feel like the anger choke in my chest.

EVERY YEAR YOU RUINED CNY.
That's why I say we don't celebrate cny...

02。01。14

BuhBye year two.zero.one.three!

So, how's ya Christmas and New Year celebration?
Uh, soo odd!! nobody wanna talk about X'mas already right... don't care la.
I spent time in Penang. ( another sin city besides KL)
This year I don't have Christmas date with my dearies but barbecue with relatives and yet one of the cousin got minor accident after that......

Then after I came back home busy meeting up with friends ( not like I'm not going to meet them for ages lol ) and having Christmas party with Zumba friends.
Woohoo shake ass!!

Looking back to this whole year...
I'm so glad! A much more better year than 2011 and 2012. (both years were sucks!)
Yea......I can say my life is getting so so much better in Every aspects.
When you have experienced the down side, you will started to appreciate when everything goes smooth.

Undergo a secret project now, hoping it is going to be success and happens as I wish! Life gonna change after that.
Hopes my Guardian Angel still willing to guide me for the next year, next next year and forever please.

Time to year 2014.
Hmm...... mix feeling for a new year.
Planned to do some volunteering jobs with friends, hopefully I will do it not just by saying.
Gonna makes life more meaningful.

 "Sharing is Caring" 

Midnight thought

The other day friends said I being too straight forward in talking.
I should learn to be more sweet and to be fake....sigh.
Not really means to be sweet just um...... maybe praise more, say things in nicer way, don't be too straight even though you think is not good.

Hmm......
I know... I know...
But I really don't like being a fake dolly sheep.
Why can't I just be myself?!
Sometimes I hope I no need live life for others.
This world....to survive, to get the victory, to...... just too many reasons for you to learn to talk, even learn to be fake!
I will rather just keep quiet but you know it just doesn't works....

I wonder why some people can say a lot of nice words in front of people he doesn't like, pretending to concern to care but backstabbed in the other time.
Maybe I should learn that.

I already try to learn.

I try to smile more even though I don't like those people.

I try to praise more even though I don't feel like praising.

I try to care more even though I think I can't help in anything.

I shall say more nice words.

Is tiring......

But this is Earth with human being that likes to listen to nice praising words.

Am I a weirdo?!

Y u no live in Mars.

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Taiwan's thought

Came back from Taiwan two days ago. I slept for more than 24 hours and just woke up for two meals.

Never been feeling such tired and sick after a trip.

I still feel the dizziness. My head is spinning.

I can't adapt to the non-stop raining weather.

Monsoon sucks!

I need you S.U.N.

So, well TAIWAN.

I have been wishing to visit this country when I was in high school.

A very good country with clean environment, great courtesy, shopping paradise and no language barrier!

But if you want me migrate to there lemme think twice. Too chinesity I guess......

I shall talk about food first.

Taiwan's snacks are yummy, you can find at any stalls in night markets are far more good compare to those in shops.

Their main meals that selling in shops are just so-so.

And those spicy food are so much differences than Malaysia's.

They got these weird nutmeg taste.

I still think Malaysia's cuisines are better.

Then, fashion sense in Taiwan is more to Korean pop style.

I can say most of the pedestrians in Taipei are like artists especially XiMenDing.

You just can't help looking at those pretty and handsome even you know that's make up effect.

Everyone is in good body shape. wtf. Don't they grow fat because of their yummilicious snacks?! 

They said you must at least try a hair cut or whatever just walk in the saloon and try their services.

Everyone went for hair cut, colouring, treatment.

So, while waiting for them I tried hair wash.

Handsome guy definitely giving service different than lady.

Double washing, double styling! woots!

Shopping paradise.

I am so glad that I'm not visiting Taiwan during summer.

If not, I will probably shop till drop.

Clothes selling in this autumn-winter season are so nice and cheap but whenever I think the second time that I don't wear long sleeve in Malaysia I force myself stop spending on clothes.

Phweee!!! Luckily I'm not living in highlands.

Girls gone crazy with tones of facial products.

You probably don't know which to choose. Everything is cheaper than Malaysia.

This happened to be one of the reason ladies choose to stay there.

No wonder Taiwanese are so pretty.

Great courtesy!

People are nice and friendly keep asking you to try their products and even let you take plenty of pictures.

I know they need us to do promoting but at least they don't show you impolite a.k.a lc face if you don't buy.
Another thing most of the public toilets are CLEAN!!
Malaysians should learn.

Now, I miss Taipei.

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Law of Attraction

Hmm....... it seems like August going to leave so soon.

Again time flies like nobody cares.

Sometimes I just feel like my age doesn't suit my mind. 

Not mature enough?

Being too shallow? or I shall say too simple?

Thinking not deep enough?

Not yet ready for bigger responsibility?

Ok, people who is same age as me already being a mother with few kids.

Whereas I was like I don't even prepare to spare so much love to my partner, I don't even feel like build my own family at this phase. 

How could they so fast ready for motherhood??

Perhaps, I should do some adult-liked stuffs like attending a motivation talk?! reading some inspiration books?! Tryna learn new things!

Not just spending the weekend like typical karaoke/ movie/ dinner/ blow water session.

Well, I did forced myself to complete some book reading tasks.

The thickness of books become the main reason for me to choose them.

Ok, seems like the word "forced" showed immaturity again......

Then I went to a talk about Law of Attraction.

I think this is the first ever talk I attended in my life not forcing by anyone if I am not mistaken.(I lead dream-liked life. No good, no good)

I always have this mindset that seminar / course/ lecture/ talk are boring stuffs for boring people. I wouldn't sit still and pay full attention for hours of talking. 

Apparently, I failed again...... (sleep worm visited me)

Basically, the talk was like telling you you attract what you thought.
And there was this lame but funny joke.
Everyone is the biggest winner since the day you competed with millions of sperms trying to penetrate into the egg and you won!
So, next time when someone tell you that he is a loser please tell him this joke and tell him how could you let down those millions of sperms who trying to live on the earth.
No one is loser!

Nights
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Dream-liked life

Recently I started to realize something.
I tend to forget things that I have done before.
It was like I often thought that I never experience something/ never taste the food/ never visit that place and so on whereas I actually did all those stuffs.

Then, I tell people I don't know about these and that, I never been to here and there, I never said those words to someone......
Or I would say did I went those places with you? or they are just appearing in my dream in some days?
And they will answered :"No, you are not dreaming!!! Is real man! Omg! What's wrong with your brain?! How could you forget that?!"

Ah......fml!
I lead dream-liked life?!
Probably is good for some reasons at least I will not stuck myself into the past unhappy moments.
But sometimes I feel so shitty!

And another thing I learnt talking straight forward equals to hurting someone!!!
I just found out that this attitude of mine actually accidentally hurt a friend.
I already forgot it but he still remembered after years and told my friend about that.
Sorry, I didn't mean to do that and of course I'm glad that he don't mind that anymore.

So, friends sometimes I may hurt you but please don't bear in mind.
I really didn't mean to do so and I never remember those bad words either ( if you consider my straight forward wordings are mean).
Please don't keep in mind or send your words to me from others.
Just lemme know...... and I can do the explanation.

Anyway, just

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The Last Lecture by Randy Pausch

I found myself superb fast in reading inspirational books compare to the fiction that I hold the reading for almost one and a half year.

Again I was attracted by the cover of the book.

Then I found out Randy Pausch was someone very famous.

I'm not gonna talk much about this person. 

If you're interested to know him click here.

There are hundreds of quotes from Randy.

I just feel like sharing some of his thoughts and some of my thoughts.
Writing down so that I won't forget.

1.    Randy's parents were amazing. They allowed the kids paint whatever they want on their rooms' wall.
That's way too cool! One day, I gonna let my children paint their walls, too.

2.    "When you see yourself doing something badly and nobody's bothering to tell you anymore, that's a bad place to be. You may not want to hear it, but your critics are often the one telling you they still love you and care about you and want to make you better."
Yes, sometimes I was thinking that I am so disappointed with my students' attitude toward studying. I would told them if one day I don't bother to scold you, to talk to you anymore, that going to be so bad.
Often I hope someone critics on me, tell me face by face but not behind me, tell me with your sincere heart but not to see me lose.

3.   "Not everything needs to be fixed."
Randy's wife, Jai bang her car. Randy didn't sent the car to any workshop, he said the car still work, let's just drive' em! So, their dented car became a statement in their marriage.
That's why don't judge a book by its cover!
Don't ever over judge someone's car/ place that he lives sometimes it really doesn't identify your social status.

4.    "Time is all you have. And you may find one day that you have less than you think."
Exactly, who don't have time? Time is free afterall! You don't pay to get time.
Just the question is how do you manage your time?
We often complain that I don't have enough time, I need 48 hours for a day.
Sometimes, I am one of them.
I admit that my time management is bad. I should say I like to procrastinate. I drag on the tasks that I should be finish it long time ago. I always do things last minute.
So, what if one day I have less time than I think? like Randy......
Can I fully utilise the remain time I have? Idk......

5.    "I know you're smart. Smart isn't enough. The kind of people I want on my research team are those who will help everyone else feel happy to be here."
I want to meet leader like this! Able to unite all the people under his team.
I believe conducive environment for working is everyone to cooperate and trying to help each other instead of just compete with each other and the worst scenario would be backstabbing each other without your notice.
So that, they can promoted easily.

6.    "I've always believed that if you took one-tenth the energy you put into complaining and applied it to solve the problem, you'd be surprised how well things can work out."
Did you ever meet any non-complainer in your life?
I would like to meet one and I supposed that the person might be someone really optimistic, a terrific man! If he could influence people around him, the world may be a lil more peaceful.

7.    "Halfhearted or insincere apologies are often worse than not apologizing at all"
"A good apology is like antibiotic; a bad apology is like rubbing salt on the wound."
You don't just say sorry but you have to do something to make things better.

8.    Here's a quote for all ladies.
This is not from Randy but his colleague.
"When it comes to men who are romantically interested in you, it's really simple. Just ignore everything they say and only pay attention to what they do."
That's it.
Guys can be really good in sweet talking especially when they need your help/ when they are too lonely. This is just a lil bonus.
But we look at how you act more than how you talk.

9.    "Want to have a short phone call with someone? Call them at 11:55a.m./ right before lunch. They'll talk fast. You may think you are interesting, but you are not more interesting than lunch."
This is interesting and in some way it is right!

10.    "Brick walls are there for a reason.They give us a chance to show how badly we want."
Sometimes we want to challenge ourselves, the higher the brick wall, the more you wanted to get over it. You might fall but remember you can actually climb over it.
Memory brings me to the World War Z that I have watched. Those zekes can actually really climbed over the tall huge wall when they determined to do so.

Here's a video of Randy's last lecture.

You can never feel this is a man going to die in 3-6 months because of tumors and cancer.

IT'S ABOUT HOW YOU LIVED YOUR LIFE.

Nights.
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The broken Liebster Award

So, who's the one who nominated me to The Liebster Award?

Miss Maple! Thanks buddy heh!

Then, what's this?!

Well, I will break the rules going to skip some parts, sorrreeey!

11 facts about me?! I never really think about these for once. But hey interesting yea!

1. I'm a Leo baby. I don't know why I just feel like I must meet a guy who has the same horoscope as mine. I wanna see how's a Leo guy's personality. I have met few Leo girls you will see how confident they are especially those who born in Aug. those typical Leo. I can feel their life are sparkling! (Recently I found out that horoscopes are so true in interpreting one's personality) 

2. I seldom cry in front of people even my family or closed one. But, I can't believe the first time I cried in front of them was when I was 19. And yet the reason was I failed my STPM and the moment I saw my result I knew I'm not qualified for any local U. I was so stupid, afterall it was just a minor matter. My best friend really get shocked when she knew that because I am so tough all the while. That day we talked about this, we thought I might cry again after 19 years. Another break down uh? Haha...

3. I don’t like people seeing my first impression as a good girl unless they are these elders, boss or someone that you really have to show a good girl face even you are not one. My friend said I’m weird on this. People tend to think I like soft sweet stuffs, I’m very gentle much because of my soft voice. I even purposely try to make my voice sound rougher when I talk to someone but I still can’t change it. And I would said: “Oh, that plushy so cute! How sweet is that pinky pinkish stuffs! Omg! She looks so dolly in that outfits!”  These doesn’t mean that I wanna own them, I just simply think those are nice but please I don’t want my room full with pink. Swagger wannabe.

4. I must cut my nails at least once a week. I can't stand when I see my nails are long. I will be feeling itchy about them. And yet sometimes people tend to think I'm those girl who likes to have long nails. Hmmpph... 

5. I'm talented in doing art crafty stuffs. If you read my blog, you'll probably know what I had done so far. Recently, one more crafty things that I'm proud of is......

I transformed this normal T-shirt

To this!!!

for my lovely friend for her Zumba class.

And of course I got compliments from my Zumba members.

I think I should have my own business if someone willing to sponsor me. Lol. 

6. I can only show my true face in front of kids. You will know why if you've met 'fake evil dolls'! Maybe kids are too naive?! I wouldn't need to worry what they think about me. So, they are those who always say I'm crazily insane. 

7. I don't know since when I don’t have horror dreams. So, when people says Noo! I don't watch those bloody gory horror movies because I'm afraid I will have nightmare. I will be so proud to say that Aha! I wouldn't dream about that!!! Actually I don't really dreaming when I sleep, if I dreamt there were mostly those weird dreams like Japanese army ambush to my house to catch me and I have to run madly to lock all the doors in my house or dream like my dad left his broken hand in my car (is actually a fake one after I figured out) and acted like he died and I need to find him like I'm a detective. But, I so much wanted to have sweet dreamsss!!! 

8. I have the ability to easily enjoy myself, keep calm and steady or can easily smile on little things like I saw a baby girl/ boy walking on the road or simply a funny slogan appeared in front of my sight. Whenever there is couch or sofa, I can just lay lazily like nobody there. I don't think this is something special until S told me not everyone can smiles that easily. 

9. I don't like to eat fruits especially fruits with sour taste. Mostly girls that I met they like fruits so much. Why I'm not one of them? So, I always get scolded. When you see me finding fruits from the fridge much because I know I almost get sick and I always think vitamin C from orange can cure me.

10. I'm the eldest child in my family. I don't like being the eldest. I always hope I have a elder brother and sister. The brother can teach me all those IT stuffs, the sister can teach me all those fashion stuffs. Ha! Will never ever happened, guess I have to wait my next life.

11. I wanna get a tattoo spreading from my neck line to shoulder! I used to liked a tattoo on ankle. You know who inspired me to change my mind for tattooing at neck line? My students. You guys get me crazy sometimes. But, why on earth tattooing is so painful?!! I guess I can only get the fake one......

Thinking facts of myself ain't easy at all! 

Shuh Hong's ques for me!

1. Do you know that there is this French Kiss before u do so? What's your first reaction on this?

I know! Don't you think the word 'French' added before the kiss sounds so much romantic? But but but......I still think both tougues' twisting are a lil gross...... 

2. What is the camera model you are using currently?

I don't have a camera, but I once thought of buying this before I got my S3.

Casio Exilim EX-JE10

3. cheese, chocolate, strawberry?

Cheese!!!! Any food with cheese is heaven! But, I tell you strawberry dipping in chocolate sauce is heaven, too. I don't like sour strawberry, btw where can I find sweet strawberry? 

4. Do you watch running man?

What a famous game show! I watched few episode only, because internet connection is down so I couldn't download it.

5. Who/what inspired you to blog? 

Famous bloggers like Camille Co, Jane Chuck, Daphne Charice, Ashley Lau, Sophie Willocq and so on. I started my blog since 2012 August simply for fun.

6. What kind of blog style do you read on?Who is your favourite blogger? 

I read blogs with fashion posts, talk about lifestyle and personality. Jane I think.

7. Have you been joining any blogger events before? Would you interest in joining any blogger events?

How I wish I can join any of them. Most of the blogger events held at capital city like KL and Penang, I'm living too far from there.

8. What are you doing before you turn on your computer?

Before I turn on? Switch on my charger because my lappie's battery life is death!

9. What is your own personal taboo to people about you? (I must make sure my fridge has only odd number of can drinks, David Beckham has this taboo, he would drink the cans if he found out even number)

This one make me headache! I guess I don't have any...... or did I have one? Not sure thou......

10. What do you not like about food? ( eg:I dun like to eat cheese, I will vomit whenever I taste them.  I like to cook but I dun like to wash dishes afterward)

Hi 5! I don't like washing dishes either. I don't get why people like to eat raw petai?

11. Last question! erm....What is the fruits that you eat in your hostel?

Did I eat fruits in hostel? Ah! Strawberriesss... I went Cameron Highlands for a few times when I study at Kuala Lipis and what fruits you shouldn't miss when you went there? Still, where can I get sweet strawbies??

Nights

X

Life......

Yawn.

This is the second week of holidays.
May gone and here comes the fourth day of June.
I was sunk in the dateless timezone when I was in the Cambodia trip.
Until I saw the receipt of the Burger King I realised June is here.
The emotional feeling just came inside my soul. Damn it.

Well, maybe that day was the day I left Cambodia and felt like trip ends means holidays end, too.
Yes, only travelling make me feels life a little more interesting.

The week before I went Cambodia was packed!
Everyday was planned and I woke up 8 stg every morning even thou I don't have to. So not me! But, I'm glad with that.
But now, no more planning no more trips I feel down......lifeless
Can I just resign and forever travel?!
I don't mind doing part time job/ become an illegal labour......

 

I'm just fine

Hmm...... looks like May going to end in real soon.
I think I've repeated the word time flies over and over.
It seems like half of the year gone. Just like that.
What have I done? Achieve anything?
Years passing so fast ever since I started to work.
I remember I was once eagerly to reach the age of 25 because I wanted to know what I'm going to be and now I am just an really ordinary lady.
Life never really been so fascinating.
I am just rotted in the same place, doing the same thing, facing the same situation.

Anyhow, I think I am really someone who never satisfies with what I have own now. May be out there people might think I already good enough to come to this phrase of my life.
At least I've graduated with a good result, I got a stable job, then I got my own property, salary that enough for me to survive and I got friends and family.
And eventually my life is actually getting better with good things come along.
What else do I need??
But I am just not satisfy, just too greedy wanted to get more.
Just like Morrie said people wanted more and more and more like there's a never ending desire.
Somehow, I feel so empty on the other side..... Am I a pessimist?
I have no idea what can I do to fulfill it......
I don't have the courage to change the routine.
I need a real powerful strength to probe me to a right direction. A real powerful one!
May be I just need to put myself to believe in a religion.

I didn't mean to write so much at first but just...um...end up become kinda emotional.
I think I can only express my feeling by writing rather than talking to someone.

Okay, shut down please.
I should think something good.
Two weeks holidays coming again. Gonna fly soon.
I think travelling is the only thing that make my life a little more interesting.

Well holidays supposed to be happy but just the only fly in the ointment is I have to drive all the way back to my working place to finish something.
Forced to do so, that really spoilt my mood once I know that.
Screw you!


Nights, world!
x

GE13

505 was so happening as a historic moment in year 2013!

Everyone is voting for the change!
I think I shall blog about my experience as this is my first time to vote during election.

But, before this I just don't get why the announcement of results can changed as they liked?! Aren't this is something so formal and so important, so you could only counted properly before you declared it to the citizen!
Well, I barely know about the politic issue but there was just something happened too obvious until you can't ignored it!

Hmmph.... those so called magic tricks performing?!
and Where's the justice?


I thought the final result should be declared at 11p.m. and they kept delaying the announcement 1 stg.
I'm actually waited the result to make sure is it a public holiday and whether do I need to work for the next day.

Okay, back to my voting experience.
I woke up at 10a.m. after bathing I went to a secondary school for voting with my mom and I parked my car a stone throw from the center. Walking on the way towards the center I saw some PAS people kept saying INI KALILAH UBAH to my mom but not me.
But, I still love their spirit.
And there were jamming in front of the center and the honk sound but was to show their support toward the election.

Then, there were four saluran for the voters.
All the youngster a.k.a first time voter got channel four.
I went to the queue and I was like what? Damn! super duper long queue!
I think it was about hundreds of people queueing in front of me.
Maybe the SPR should open two channel for us as there were really few voter at others channel!

I was queueing from here.

Then, to here.

We had to queue like in zig-zag from the green trees far over there 

then only reach the classroom for saluran four.

Hmm... you probably can't imagine how long is it...

But then I realised mine was small case as they were people from other state have long queue under the rain......

I have been waiting for two hours+ without having breakfast and water and standing under the hot weather just for the sake of INI KALILAH!

Really almost fainted because of the weather.

Well, in the end Malaysian got the biggest disappointment.