Kinda miss the old time where most of the Friday's nights I wouldn't be staying home doing nothing.
Feel so bored, energyless and I don't know what to do.
Was laying on bed and recalling some memories from last year.
The exact week from Christmas eve to New Year's count down.
I remember I was so emotional because of having the tiny useless hope for someone that not worth for it.
This year is still the same where I'm staying home for the whole week.
The mood is different because I had totally let go.
I still feel kinda lonely but I don't have the urge of going anywhere and I don't feel as emotional as last year.
I guess I start to accept the reality a.k.a adulthood.
However, I'm looking forward to next year.
I can see things got better from 2016 to 2017 even though it wasn't that good but at least there were some improvement.
I believe God hears what I had wished.
2018 would be even better.
Have been secretly wishing something and I feel like it is going to happen soon. :)
Have faith and keep going!
x
